Don’t Just Do Something, Sit There.

They say we’re supposed to be grown, but why do I feel like a child? Looking out the window, searching for something exciting, something new. All the while apathetic to the gorgeous present moment, standing at the edge of a moutain waiting for the wind to blow.

You say I’m supposed to be healed, but the pain is still there. Festering until the valve gets opened again. And still, the sun shines, hand-in-hand we spin in its late-day glow, interlocked, even if in a dream.

I say I’m supposed to be more like you. Like an open book with no cover, no shield, and free for all to see. Yet when the quiet comes and the urge to move nudges, I sit still and feel it all, inviting the thunderstorms with open arms, because only after can the sun shine.

Photo by: Lydia Vycitalova

Pretty Little Bow

For most of my life, I’ve felt like I needed to wrap a #PrettyLittleBow around all interactions. I wanted to please people, and make them feel comfortable and happy, even at the cost of my own happiness and comfort. Now, at 30, that desire is slipping away as I gain confidence and more experience in this body. Human relationships are messy and that’s OK. Not everyone gets along, as there are infinite vibrations of energy all around us harmonizing and clashing at any given moment, but as long as we can respect each other and the lens each of us views the world from, maybe we can live in relative harmony. I hope you can get a few laughs from this video, along with the underlying message, which is whatever you think it is, or not what you think it is at all.